I can't believe that it has been 2 months!

So it is Christmas Eve and all is somewhat well in the world. Sorry it has been so long since my last post. I have had a really tough semester and it finally ended on the 11th of December. Then in a long conversation with my grandparents I decided to move back to Champaign so that I could be of help.

My grandfather spent several different stents in the hospital. This last one was the one that did the trick. He had a bad gall bladder. We got it out and he is on the mend and home. He is felling so much better however, weak and not wanting to get around right now. I know that with time he will be back to his former self. We did get really good news, his IgG (the antibody that measures the cancer level) was down to 1900 and 1725 is the high end of normal. We may get this into remission yet.

So right now I am on my last 4 week Christmas break. I start my student teaching on the 12th of January right here in Champaign-Urbana. I am really looking forward to all that I will be able to do and the count down really begins to the day of graduation.

I hope that all who read this have a great and safe holiday season. I know I am counting all my blessings and will enjoy the time I have to spend with my family. You never know what the future holds.

The best suprise and a great book

On Saturday I was home for the day to have my dad put breaks on my car. I was planning on staying so that I could have some home cooking and spend some time with my grandparents. We were sitting waiting for dinner to get done and my grandfather said "There is a car with Delaware plates." I was trying to figure out what he ment by that, so my mom and I look out the window and sure enough there was a van pulling up in front of the house next door. Then to our suprise one of my aunts for Delaware was getting out of the van. I couldn't believe that my three great-aunts and great-uncle were here at my parents house. It was great that they were here. I know that the really came to see how my grandfather was since he got really sick.

I have some news about my grandfather he is still having some back pain and it is making him crabby. He goes on Monday to have his MRI to see what is going on with his back. I am really worried and my grandmother is so worried. I know that there will be something found but I don't think that it is really as bad as we are all fearing. I am putting my faith in God that he will take care of him and give him peace. I also wish that for my grandmother so that she doesn't worry so much.

School is crazy busy, well not really. I am not really all that happy in my placement so it is hard to be happy about going to school everyday. I have a ton of time to plan what little lessons I do plan and I can get my projects done as well. Tomorrow is the Halloween party and fun stuff so that should be fun. Only 6 weeks left at this placement and then some time off for the holidays.

So now to this great book. I have just finished "Twilight" and it is a great book. I have spent three days this week doing nothing but read. I am fighting the urge to run and get the next book in the series. Everyone said that it was good but really I couldn't put it down. It's not to late to run to Target and get the next one. The teachers at the school I'm at are always taking about it and have asked me to go to the movie with them when it opens. I'm not sure that I will but the book so far is amazing.

Well, I'll leave it at that and will try to post more often.

I wish I could post more often

Man I can't believe that I have let so many days go by and have not posted anything. I guess that just goes to show how very busy I am. I just started a new placement and I am having a hard time adjusting to the new setting. My CT (cooperating teacher) and I could not be more different. I try to keep in mind that I am there for the students and can learn from them. I guess this is just going to be one of those growing pains.

So last night I got an awesome surprise. Well I guess not only myself. Three of my aunts and my uncle from Delaware came into town last night. I had not idea that they were coming. They are really here to see about my grandfather. They had not seen him since he got so sick in May. He is having a lot of back pain and the doctors are not sure why. When he was first diagnosed there was a spot on his back that they thought could be a problem. He is going in for an MRI soon so hopefully they will find something or I should say that they don't find anything. I am really worried and my grandmother is very upset. I know this is really hard on her because he is in so much pain that it is making him cantankerous. It is like seeing my great-grandmother all over.
Speaking of her I am totally engrossed in the world series. Her favorite team was the Phillies and I am holding up the tradition of watching them like she would be. However, she enjoyed watching the games with the mute on. I watch it with sound, I just can't get used to watching the game without sound.
So there is a little update with me. No news on the guy front not that I would have time to see a guy right now. However, meeting someone new would be kinda nice. Oh well, I guess there is plenty of time for me to meet a nice guy. I am just not sure where I am supposed to find any.

WOW!! has it really been over a month.

How time flies. I am sitting here thinking that I need to check my blog and low and behold it has been a month since I posted last. Let me just tell you this is really the first time that I have had to sit and relax. I decided that it would be a good time to catch every one up on what is going on.

SCHOOL: it is busy. I am up early and off to school, I then teach all day. Once I am done teaching I come home and start working on the projects, lesson plans and the many other things that we have to complete for this semester. It is so much that there are at least two people that I know that have had to leave the program. Let me just say that it is stressful. I have no life. However, I can't imagine doing anything else with my life.

DATING: is not happening. Like I said my life is sooo busy with school that meeting or even dating guys is impossible. They just don't understand that when I say I have a ton to do it means I have a TON to do. SO for now I am married to my computer. I am not worried though I have plenty of time and really I enjoy not having to share my space with anyone but my cat Finn.

MY GRANDFATHER: is doing well. He is taking his second round of chemo by mouth. His doctor has said that he would like to bring his IGG levels down slowly. He is back in his shop working on building somethings. He was in the process of making a mirror when he got sick. Well he has finished it and it is so pretty. He, my grandmother, and parents came up one Sunday and he put it on my dresser. I will try and post some pictures of it soon.

I think I will leave it there for now. I am watching the NASCAR race and just want to veg out on the couch. It is nice to have a night of freedom. I have one project due on Thursday and am almost done. I will work more on it later. I would like to have it completed by tomorrow evening so that I can spend the last week with my kids stress free.

The First few weeks.

So I have survived the first week and a half with my kids. They are amazing. I am so blessed that things are going well. I love my CT, she has so much knowledge. I said to her today that I want to be her when I grow up. I have tons to get done in the next several weeks. So tonight I start really getting down to business.

My grandfather gets the results of his tests tomorrow and I will let you know what the doctor says.

As for my date it was ok. The beer and pizza turned out to be beer and burgers. We have stuff in common and there are things that we don't have in common. Then this past Thursday we went out again. He came to my place so that I could take him to the restaurant. (he just moved here so he didn't know where it was.) Then he asked me to buy dinner!!! I thought that I was being courted, but I guess that is not how it works now. It has been almost four years since I have actually really been on a date. Then he insists on calling and seeing if he can come by. Last night he wanted to know what I was making him for dinner. I'm not so sure that this will last. Oh well you can't win them all right.

I'll keep you posted on the dating and what we find out from the doctor for my grandfather.

Half way through the week

So it is Wednesday, the week is half over and my head is so full. It is information overload. In the last three days we have gone over 2 major projects that we will be required to complete. There are two more to discuss, then we have all the lesson plans, the reflections, the teaching, and two papers. I think I will be completing this semester by the skin of my teeth. I am trying to keep things in prospective but at the moment it is really hard. Monday starts my first day with my kids and I can't wait.

Update: My grandfather has come down with a bad cold with possible allergies thrown in. He has started antibiotics and getting lots of rest. My grandmother is really worried because of what happened last time. I am hoping that the antibiotics will kick in and he will start to get better.

Update: I have a date on Friday. I am really excited, it has been over a year since I was on a date. He wants to meet at a bar for beer and pizza. I am not sure how I feel about that meeting place but as my friends would say "he could be an axe murderer so a neutral place is the best." I think my friends are a little over protective. So I will let you know how it goes on Friday.

I need to get going because I have a ton of reading, so until next time.......

First Day of Class

So today was the first day of class. What can I say about having a one hour break and then getting done at 12:30. LOVE IT!! However, it will not be like that again until Friday. So what can I say at this point, not much. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Well, I know that will change tomorrow when my supervisor goes over all the projects that will have to be completed. I am really excited about what is in store for all of us in the coming semester.

So here is some exciting news. I got a call on Saturday from one of the guys I have been talking to on Eharmony. I am really excited about the possibilities that are out there. He seems like a really nice guy. He has never been married, has no children, and has a JOB!!! It is the little things that make a girl happy. The plan is to meet sometime this week for dinner or something. I was a little confused that we did not go ahead and set a day and time to meet when we spoke. Some of my friends are concerned that he may be crazy or an axe murderer. I say as long as you meet in a public place and someone knows where you are then you can be really safe in meeting a complete stranger. I will have to let you all know how it turns out. This will be the first "date" that I have had in over a year. I think I am due.

UPDATE: my grandfather continues to get stronger everyday. He is really amazing. We have been greatly blessed by his recovery and all that he has been through. He is working know to start driving again. He has not been behind the wheel in over three months. We are waiting for some blood tests to determine where he is in the cancer issue. If all is well, he will start a medication that will maintain his status of remission. IF, there is something wrong then I am not sure what will happen next.

I will keep you all posted about the date and what we hear about my grandfather. Until next time.........

My name

So a friend of mine had this on her blog and I thought I would take a look. I am not so sure that it is all me. Take a look and see what you think.

What Stephanie Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

My days are getting few.

It is a Thursday and I have to start the fall semester on Monday. I will be spending the first full week of the semester in orientation. (fun, fun) I am not sure what we could possibly talk about from 9-3 five days in a row. Then on the 25th I get to start in the classroom. I can't wait. I never thought that I would say I can't wait to go back to school, but I can't. The summer has gone really fast and I'm hoping that this next year will go just as fast.

There are no real updates to give today. I have just been taking it easy for the last few days and enjoying every minute. I really need to be getting my office in order but laying around sounds so much better at the moment. I know that starting Monday my time will not be my own. I'll let you all know how the first few days go.

Monday

I came home to Champaign for a few days. My grandfather had some appointments today so I came home to go with them. It is always better when more then one person can hear what the Dr's say. So some good news, no more chemo for now. They are going to run extensive tests to see where he stands in the cancer. Once we know that we can go from there. He has been really tired. He hasn't been sleeping so hopefully we can get that under control. I think that are happy to have me here for a few days. It is nice to be here and I can be helpful with things around the house. Some things my grandmother can't do by herself.

Not much is happening on the eharmony front. I'm not sure that I will keep up with it. What is the deal with guys? They start talking with you then it's days before you hear anything again. Oh well, I guess that means that they aren't the right ones.

An update on the ex front. Not much to say he did text me the other day just to see how things were going. I just answered his questions and let it go at that. I really am done with helping him deal with his issues. I did enough of that when we were together and I don't have to be obligated to do that any more. I have enough issues of my own. Like I ran into a guy that I knew when I was dating my ex. We have been talking these last 24 hours. He is married and he just told me that he always thought I was hot. I think he may just be saying that. I am not sure how I fee about talking with him in this way when he is married. I'll keep you updated on that situation.

I am enjoying the couple of days off I have before I have to go back to school. I have one week from today and it's back to the grind. I can't wait to get going. This semester should be good, tons of work but it's just that much closer to being done. I can't believe that this time next year I will be getting my classroom ready.


Well, dinner should be my next thought. So until next time.....

278 and counting

278, That is how many days until I graduate from ISU. I can't believe that time has gone so fast. I am anxious to get started with my field base. My only worry is that there will be so much to do in the coming semester and making sure that I give enough time to each project. I think that once I know what each assignment will be it will be better.
So I only have one more paper to finish and I will have my early childhood endorsement. Everyone tells me that the more I have the more marketable I will be. I guess we'll see when it comes time for me to get a job.

So here is a little up date. My grandfather is doing really well. He is starting to go up stairs and soon will be able to get rid of the hospital bed downstairs. I am heading home at the end of the week to stay with my grandparents. Next Monday he has an appointment with his oncologist. I am a little concerned about what we might find. Just before he left the hospital his IGG was 2170. Normal is between 583-1761. With the type of cancer that he has he will never be cured and the only thing we can hope for is remission. He could have a bone marrow transplant however with his age and blood type the likelihood that it will work is very small.

I can't believe that I did this but I have joined eharmony. I have done this in the past but lately it seemed that every time I turned on the TV there was a commercial about it. So I said why not. So far I have been contacted by a few guys. I am not real sure how I feel about doing this but where can you meet a nice guy that has some morals and values and doesn't just want to into your pants. At my age when all of my friends are married and have children or there are my school friends and I love them but they are 21 and 22. Not really ready to settle down and still think that going out several nights a week and getting drunk and making "bad life decisions" is the way to go. Don't get me wrong I love going out and having a good time but I am the "mom" of the group. The one that wants to make sure everyone gets home safely.
So back to the web dating. How do you really know what you are getting when you do this? I know that I am being as honest as I can be. I don't want to give it all away or there would be no need to meet them in person. Then there is this: discontinuing conversation based on statements made and never meeting the person. I have to say I am guilty of this but I don't think I can go out with 20 plus guys in a short time just to see if what they are saying is true. Oh well, I'll let you know how it goes.

So here is a little up date on the ex. We had not spoken in almost a month, then the other night he texted me. I guess it is easier then actually calling me. He says he is doing a little better. He actually asked me how I was. Shocker!!! He NEVER asks me that. So, this is the deal, I am not and will not be contacting him.

I think I will leave it here for now. I have a paper and a presentation to complete.

Until next time.......

Friday Night

So, my grandfather came home on Wednesday. He is really happy to be home and not have to eat hospital food. Although considering that he has not been able to eat real food in almost 6 weeks. His spirits seem better. I have a feeling the his battle with cancer is far from over.

A little update on me. I have been taking 9 hours of summer school and I am almost done with my last class of the summer. I also took a summer job to help with the income. My Lia Sophia business has been slow but I just will blame the economy. Isn't that every ones excuse. I have just a few more days of the job and I can't wait. I had to work last night and then most of the day today. So operating on 3 hours of sleep is killing me. I was just on here to see what was going on and decided that I should say a little something since I have been really bad about posting this summer.

The count down begins for the start of the fall semester. I will be doing my Field base for school and I can't wait to get started. I ran into a classmate the other day and she said that we had 291 days until graduation. So as of today, 287 days until graduation. Could there be a sweeter thing in the world? For me to finish my degree when I had several teachers tell me that I would never make it. Well to those who said I couldn't, I am and I will and with a 3.65 grade point average.

I can't take it any longer. I am so tired that I can barley keep my eyes open, so I think I will take a hot bath and head to bed.

So until next time, all the best.

This is the newest addition to my sisters family. Cole James (after my grandfather) was born on June 23, 2008. He was 8 lbs 1 oz and 19 in long. He is amazing, and growing like a weed. My sister took a picture of him and his almost two year old sister and he is half as long as she is.

An update on my grandfather, he is doing well. He will be going home from the hospital on Wednesday. He has had to have extensive physical, occupational, and speech therapy. he has a long road to go still but everyday that he is with us is a blessing. Thank you to all that have been praying for my family.

An update on the last post about the guy situation. It has been an almost every other day with him. Although it has been over two weeks since I have spoken with him. It was really funny to hear all about how much he misses her and how she was "the one." I just want to say grow a pair and get over it already.

I hope that all is well with those of you who read this. I will try and post again soon. Here are some more pics of Cole.

I have survived turning 30.

As you can see I am well past my 30th birthday and let me say that it was memorable. I spent my birthday in the hospital. Let me start by saying that I was not admitted to the hospital. On the Friday before my 30th birthday I got a call from my mother saying that my Pop-pop was in the CCU unit at the hospital in my home town. I have mentioned the fact that he has cancer. Well this was pneumonia. Well not just pneumonia, but an infection in the sac that surrounds the lungs. Which means that he was in an enormous amount of pain. At this call I drop everything and head home to be with my Mom-mom and family.

By Saturday morning he was on a ventilator. This machine was to help him breath which also means that he was in a drug induced coma. I have seen people on TV that are on these machines but I was not prepared to see a man that I have NEVER seen sick a day in his life with all the tubes and lines hooked to him. To make this long story short, he is now off the machine and talking. He is having issues with his ability to swallow. His spirits are down and he does not remember anything of the last 10 or so days. So if anyone reading this could keep my Pop-pop and family in their prayers that would be great.

Now to the real reason why I felt compelled to write this evening. One question: what do you say when the man that broke your heart wants to cry on your shoulder about the girl that just broke his heart.

I received a call from the guy that I thought that I was supposed to marry the other day to say that he was sorry for all that he had put me through. Short version: we started dating when I was 19 and he was 21. We were together off and on for the next 6 1/2- 7 years. On numerous occasions he would say that he didn't want to be with me then a few weeks later want me back. After several go rounds I finally got tired of the indecision and said enough is enough. 4 years has gone by and just within the last year we have started a new "friendship". I say it that way because I am the only one that calls just to say "hi". He only calls when he needs something. Usually is has to do with some girl that he is seeing.

So to this recent call. This girl, that he has only been seeing for 3 months has gone and done the "I can't be with you." thing, twice in the last 2 weeks. He calls to say that he now knows what I went through all those time he did it to me. He wants to know what he should do. I can empathize with his situation but it is really hard not to feel that he is getting what he deserves.

Then there is a part of me that wants to believe that maybe now that he knows he wants to commit to getting married that maybe he could do that with me. I am not even really sure that is what I want or if it would be a good thing for me. Yes, I have moved on and I have dated other people but what do you do when the man that you still love (I am not in love with him, but part of me still loves him) wants to cry about some other girl that he thought would be "the one"?

I have not spilled my guts about something that I thought that I was over. I am just at a loss as to what to do next.

Five days and counting

So the count down has started. It is five days and counting until my 30th birthday. I am feeling a little scared and sad about this upcoming day. There are many other reasons that I am feeling this way. Someone please explain to me why someone says that they will call so that you can celebrate their birthday and then don't call. My biggest pet peeve is when you say you will call and then don't call. I am starting to feel that maybe I am not a good friend or something. The worst is that this same person had friends post pictures of this outing where everyone can see them. I was just looking at things and there they were posted. I thought that we were supposed to be good friends. I think I may have thought wrong.

So enough about that sad story. Some good news my new nephew will be here soon. I am guessing that in the next two weeks he will be gracing this world with his presence. I can't wait to meet this little guy. Plus I get to keep my niece in the time that he and my sister are in the hospital. I will keep you posted and when he comes I will post some pics.

Summer school has started and I can't believe that I am taking 12 hours. Right now I am just taking 9 and that is kicking my behind. Next week I will add another 3 hours.

I think that I will leave it here for now. I am on my way out to hang with some friends.

Classes are over!!

Classes are finally over. I could not be happier. I had my last conference with my supervisor and took my last final. I told my professor that the final was the hardest I had ever taken. It took me an hour and a half. By the end I wanted to scream (I didn't). I know that I got an A in at least one of my classes.

I was allowed to move on to the next step in my teaching career. Now I have my 12 hours of summer school. In the fall I will start teaching almost full time. I have two 9 week placements one in a junior high school and the other 9 weeks in an elementary school. I could not be happier in being in a middle school. I would love to teach for real (a paying job) in a middle school. There is just something about kids at that age. Maybe it is because I had such a horrible experience in middle school. I could go on and on about the bad days of middle school but I will spare you. Let's just say I will never be that kind of teacher.

I am sitting here watching Dancing with the Stars and American Idol. I was just thinking that I have nothing to do. It feels really weird not to have a paper to write, or lesson plan, or making some worksheet for the next day. I think that I should enjoy it while it lasts because I only have two weeks until summer classes start.

I think that I will leave it here for now. My shows are getting interesting. Also, I don't really have anything exciting on my mind.

A sad day.

Today was my last day of teaching in my junior practicum. I have been teaching 7 first, second, and third graders. I was very say today when I left school. I held my tears until I was in my car. My teachers gave me the best present. They took pictures of the kids and made me a scrapbook page. It is the cutest thing ever.

I am down to one day left of class. I have two small projects left to finish and then I get to be off for two weeks. Then its off the summer school.

I got some really great news the other day. I have moved into a management position with Lia Sophia. I am so very excited about the opportunity to reach women about this company. I make my own hours and make really good money.

So I just wanted to make a quick post to keep everyone up to date. I need to get to finishing up my projects.

One week left

I just realized that it have been a few weeks since my last post. I guess that has to be expected since I have had soooo much to do to finish the semester. Well the good news is that I am almost done. I have only one week left and only one final to take. Then I only get two weeks off then the summer semester starts.

Here is the crazy thing I am taking 12 hours this summer. I know what am I thinking. Well , this is the thing why not? I have really nothing else to do this summer. I am not working full time. I am relying on my jewelry business to pay the bills. I really only need one class this summer to complete my degree. But the others will just add to my options when I start looking for a job.

Just a few updates. My grandmother had hip surgery on Tuesday and is doing well. She can't drive but my grandfather is taking care of that. The other thing is this. Several months ago my grandfather was diagnosed with blood cancer. My family and I have had time to digest this news and we are hopeful that he will be able to live with the cancer. It is not curable, it will only be in remission. He is doing the chemo and seems to be doing well with it. He just seems tired so he is not doing a whole lot.

To update on the new little one that is coming. My sister is feeling really good. She has really popped out in the last couple of weeks. I know that she is really ready and she has 8 weeks left. I am not sure that my niece understands what is happening. I think it will be a real shock when baby Cole comes home.

I am loving the nice weather. I have turned the heat off, which is nice. I have had the windows open and my cat Finn loves getting in the window and watching the birds. Right now he wants to play and so posting this blog is a little interesting. The above picture is of Finn on his favorite place on my bed, right in the middle. Just as I was finishing this post Finn got in the window. So here he is.

There might not be any posts until after this coming week. I want to get everything done so that my two weeks where I have nothing I can relax.

Enjoy the awesome weather.

It has been a few days.

I know that is has been a few days since I have posted. As I am sitting here I realize that I have not said to much about myself except that I am turning 30.

I grew up in Champaign, Il. I have one younger sister who is married and has a little girl and a little boy on the way. I went to the local community college and got my associates degree in applied arts and science. At this point I realized that I was not quite ready to move on to a major college (that's another story.) So I got a certificate in dental assisting. I then spent 7 years working in the dental field. I loved my patients, but not so much of working for doctors. It sorta fell in my lap that I would go work for my dad who happened to own his own business.

After several months of working for my dad doors opened and I decided to go back to school. I could not have done this without the support of my mom and dad. I got all my little ducks in a row and last spring I was off to Illinois State University. I have to say that it was the best decision that I could have ever made.

The road has not been easy and I have had several mental breakdowns but at this point the semester is almost over. I will start student teaching in the fall and will finally graduate with my bachelors in education in May of 2009. The best part is my sister will be getting her masters in education on the same day and in the same ceremony. What better day could there be?

The only thing missing is that special someone that I could share all this with. Oh well, there is not a lot of time in my week to add a man to it. Everyone says that it happens when you least expect it well no expectations here and still nothing.

I think that I will leave it here for now. There are still several large projects that I need to finish before the end of the semester.

Awesome Weekend

Could we have asked for a better weekend? I am sad however that because of the large amount of work that I could not have been out to enjoy any of the nice days. So I am feeling a little retrospective here of late. I am less then two months from turning 30 and the only thing that is going well is that I am getting my degree in Special Education. I also am running my own business of selling jewelry. I find do these in home parties are a great stress reliever. I enjoy meeting new women and sharing with them my love of this jewelry and the great opportunity it has afforded me.
It will be yet another long week. The school semester is winding down. I will however only have one week of freedom before I will have to return to school for the summer semester and 12 hours. I know I am crazy for sure. I shall leave it here for know. I must get ready for my week ahead. Until next time.....

I have joined the blogging community!!

So I have seen several of my friends that have started blogs. It got me to thinking..... I am about to turn "30." Wow, that is a little bit hard to take. In the last several weeks I have been looking at my life and what I am doing with it. I am finishing my Junior year at ISU. I know most people may finishing a masters, but I got a late start. I was not sure what I wanted to do the first time I was in College. Now that I am in school again it has been the best thing that I could have done. The fact that I am not married and don't children helps me to accomplish this small feet.

Can I just say that the fact that I am almost 30 has its disadvantages. I am in class with 20-22 year olds. Don't get me wrong I love the girls in my class however, I am not into the bar scene much anymore. A majority of our conversations include going out and getting drunk and making "bad life choices" This really not for me. I have far past the bar scene every night of the weekend. I do like going out for the occasional drink and some dancing but every Thursday, Friday and Saturday.

So here it is I will be 30 in less then two months. Like I said I have been thinking about where I am heading. I know that my true purpose in life it to teach children that have disabilities. My true passion is to make children in my classroom feel that they can accomplish their goals in life. To many times there are those that have low expectations for them and very few of us that feel by setting high expectations those children can reach them.

Ok, so I think that is enough for now. However, there are so many things that I could say. To many thoughts that I can't get them all out. By the way that is a picture of me. It was taken a couple of weeks ago.